Owning My Truth
It's the first day of Spring and I'm feeling Springy! There's something about the change in seasons that always boosts my mood and this Spring is shaping up to be super sweet as it's the first Spring that I will be working from home on my art business and not taking myself off to an office job a couple of days a week. Yep, I guess you could say I am now a full-time artist! Although with two young children, it's not very full-time but that's part of the beauty of it!
Feels a bit funny writing a blog post. I used to be quite into blogging but I haven't had an active blog in years. I created a new blog last week to participate in the Life Book blog hop (I'm teaching in 2018, still can't quite believe it) and it got me thinking about getting back into blogging on a regular basis. I started writing a few posts and so far they haven't made it out of the drafts folder. I seem to be feeling self-conscious about blogging!
I've also been feeling a bit of anxiety around posting on my social media pages lately. The truth is, I never expected to gain such a big following, particularly on Instagram, I'm still not quite sure why or how it happened. But it did. I remember having this goal of getting to 1,000 followers and now I'm edging close to 40,000 followers! Don't get me wrong, I am super grateful and I love the online art community. It's just that every now and then I have a little freak out!
Sometimes I wonder what people think. Do they realise I haven't been painting for that long? Do they know that I never went to art school? Have they figured out that I don't have it all figured out? Will they be disappointed with the truth of it all?
So this brings me to the title of this post and a personal project that I have embarked upon - '30 days of Unfurling'. When I think of unfurling, I think of a flower opening up and revealing itself fully. A fresh start, a new beginning full of hope. All seems very timely for the first day of Spring! I've decided that I am going to personally unfurl by writing a blog post everyday for 30 days.
Recently I was listening to Gavin Degraw's song 'I Don't Want To Be' and I couldn't get over how relevant the lyrics were for how I have been feeling. Here's a little snippet of the lyrics from the song:
I don't want to be
Anything other than what I've been trying to be lately
All I have to do
Is think of me and I have peace of mind
I'm tired of looking 'round rooms
Wondering what I've got to do
Or who I'm supposed to be
I don't want to be anything other than me
Pretty cool huh! It's made me realise that I don't need to be anything other than what I am. Liberating!
With that in mind, I don't really have a plan with these posts other than just sharing whatever is happening on any given day. Many of the posts will be stories from the studio but I'll also include some everyday life stuff to give a bit more of a fuller picture of what goes on around here.
Well I think that might be enough 'unfurling' today! I'll leave you with a photo of me in my studio earlier this week. Wishing you all a happy first day of Spring or Autumn, depending what side of the world you are on! Xx